MORE MEDICINE!
Well I had another doctor's appointment this week, and well the Wellbutrin I was on was simply not enough. The doctor has now started me on Effexor, to help add to the benefits of the Wellbutrin. That's right I am taking two medications at once now. Hopefully this will help my situation.
One reason my situation has been so unstable as of late is, well, my mom eloped last weekend. I wish I could tell you what an ENORMOUS surprise this was. I wish I could say that I was pleased with this news, but in all reality I don't like this guy. I am really trying to adjust to this, I really don't think I can welcome him into my family. I also don't like the idea of my mom changing her last name. Am I being stubborn? Am I trying to hold onto the memory of my father too tightly? I never dreamed I would be in this position.
My mom finding another person who she believes is the "one", only makes my search all the more bleak. My mom is single just over a year and she is married again, while I on the other hand cannot even get a date. Things like this makes one feel like an enormous loser, and not in the slightest bit desirable.
Diet is still going well. I have new pants again that are another size smaller, but I have not tried them on as I am not sure I am ready for them. I think I could fit into them, but I am not ready for the disappointment if they don't. I can't say that I really stuck to the diet last week with all that was going on, but I am back on now and back on the road to a slimmer zestybear.
Work is VERY frustrating as I feel like I am being attacked by my co-workers, they scrutinize my every move, my comings and goings. While I know I work at a factory and cannot expect work to be that fun, but an occasional giggle is not too much to ask I think. They also try to get me in trouble with my bosses, how this helps them I have no idea. Maybe it creates some drama for them, as to make their day go by faster. I have never had a problem with my co-workers not liking me before, this is a new one for me. While I was tempted to quit at first I have decided to stick it out. I am just going to trudge through it and take joy in that Lillian is just outside the office I work in and can talk to her and the hilarious co-workers she has.
That is all I have for now, I really want to update more often but I often don't feel like I have much to post. Well off to get ready for bed so I can go back to work.
One reason my situation has been so unstable as of late is, well, my mom eloped last weekend. I wish I could tell you what an ENORMOUS surprise this was. I wish I could say that I was pleased with this news, but in all reality I don't like this guy. I am really trying to adjust to this, I really don't think I can welcome him into my family. I also don't like the idea of my mom changing her last name. Am I being stubborn? Am I trying to hold onto the memory of my father too tightly? I never dreamed I would be in this position.
My mom finding another person who she believes is the "one", only makes my search all the more bleak. My mom is single just over a year and she is married again, while I on the other hand cannot even get a date. Things like this makes one feel like an enormous loser, and not in the slightest bit desirable.
Diet is still going well. I have new pants again that are another size smaller, but I have not tried them on as I am not sure I am ready for them. I think I could fit into them, but I am not ready for the disappointment if they don't. I can't say that I really stuck to the diet last week with all that was going on, but I am back on now and back on the road to a slimmer zestybear.
Work is VERY frustrating as I feel like I am being attacked by my co-workers, they scrutinize my every move, my comings and goings. While I know I work at a factory and cannot expect work to be that fun, but an occasional giggle is not too much to ask I think. They also try to get me in trouble with my bosses, how this helps them I have no idea. Maybe it creates some drama for them, as to make their day go by faster. I have never had a problem with my co-workers not liking me before, this is a new one for me. While I was tempted to quit at first I have decided to stick it out. I am just going to trudge through it and take joy in that Lillian is just outside the office I work in and can talk to her and the hilarious co-workers she has.
That is all I have for now, I really want to update more often but I often don't feel like I have much to post. Well off to get ready for bed so I can go back to work.
posted by Jimmy at 8:21 PM
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