Ok....so I don't know why I feel such a crazy need to post all kinds of things today, but oh well such is the stuff of boredom.

I am reading a new book Brothers, We Are NOT Professionals by John Piper. I have loved the book thus far and I have just finished reading a few more chapters in it. One in particular brought me under conviction. The chapter is on prayer, and while I do pray, I don't feel I pray as often and for the things God would want me to pray for and for not nearly as long as God would want me to pray. This chapter really called me out on the carpet on this one. I will give you a few quotes that have touched/ inspired me. "Prayer is coupling of primary and secondary causes. It is the splicing of our limp wire to the lightening bolt of heaven" Piper.

I feel like I allow myself to stay up too late at night getting my fix of some TV show I don't care about, and thus I sleep in, in the morning and have to rush out so I am not TOO late for work. I don't give myself enough time to get the work of God done before I get too busy to get it done.
"This perpetual hurry of business and company ruins me in soul if not in body. More solitude and earlier hours! I suspect I have been allotting habitually too little time to religious exercises, as private devotion and religious meditation, Scripture-reading, etc. Hence I am lean and cold and hard. I had better allot two hours or an hour and half daily. I have been keeping too late hours, and hence have had but a hurried half-hour in the morning to myself. Surely the experience of all good men confirms the proposition that without a due measure of private devotion the soul will grow lean. But all may be done through prayer-almighty prayer, I am ready to say- and why not? For that it is almighty is only through the gracious ordination of the God of loving truth. On then, pray, pray, pray!" William Wilberforce

I guess this is also an apology that I have not been praying for my fellow brothers and sister in Christ like I should, and that I have not been giving proper time to praying for my friends and family that are lost. I feel like I have failed many, in not devoting enough time to others, I hope that you can forgive me. Failure seems to be the word of the day for me....oh what fun